'Moth's Wings'

But you run away from me
And you left me shimmering
Like diamond wedding rings
Spinning dizzily down on the floor

-Passion Pit





"When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us."

- Alexander Graham Bell

No Longer Missing.

Here is a sample of what I am thinking about. Right Now.

-Corp Finance.
-How much I hate the Math Department
-I love people that are unique.
-Wanna go on a vacation.
-10 more lbs...
-My blind Professor is one of the biggest inspirations in my life.
-Someday, I want to inspire people like he does.
-Cloud Cult - Amazing band I just discovered 3 minutes ago...in class. Check it.
-Feels so much better to not have grudges.
-UVU parking - I'll never get over that grudge.
-Washed my car today. Feels better than I remember.
-Greatful for me roomates
-Need to make an 'I'm greatful' list for my lovely mother.
-Wanna go to NYC for $89 each way, thanks Jennie...disctraction of my entire day.
-Need new friends, getting bored.
-Jake comes home to visit soon. I'll prob see him for the 30 min I can rip him away from that girlfriend he doesn't deserve ;)
-Need to get a girl to put up with me first, then find someone like my siblings have found.
-Saw a great play last night, Little Shop of Horrors. Prob best 'date' I have been on in a long time. Great food, entertainment, and company. Yes, it was with my mother. Creepy? eh, I'll get over the creep factor. Who else am I gonna hang out with that will bite a piece off a loratab in order to relieve a toothache? Love you momma.
-Speaking of loves. Ricky is such a freak. Love that dog.
-Most def gonna listen to the Cloud Cult cd in my car...on my laptop. Embarrasing, but it is common when I can't wait to put stuff on my iPod.
-Wanna paint a picture to put in my room. Prob will be hideous but it will be mine.
-Need to play the piano more
-Need to destroy my finals. Sick of just being 'ok' at school. Maybe time to start trying...
-I'll do somethign great this weekend. By myself, or with someone...I wanna be memorable.

Whelp. Maybe its time to pay attention to Finance. I just get more confused when I listen to the 'backgound stories' of why you use the equations the way you do. Just wanna know when and how to use them.

Whoever you are...go ahead, judge me. I realize I'm a freak. I think I like it.

'beeey'

Friends and liars don't wait for me
'Cause I'll get on all by myself
I put millions of miles
Under my heels
And still too close to you I feel

Empire of the Sun

No 'song of the day' today. More like...band obsession of the week.

I liked the song 'Walking On a Dream' but became obsessed with the entire album.

If you want the album, I will send it to you e-mail style.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmM2RwlxGt0

Don't judge. I realize they are psycho looking, they are Ozzies what did you expect? I never said they weren't weird, but I guess if you are into the 'indie' thing it is actually a fairly cool video. Not to mention I want to go to Asia. Bad. How bad? WAAAAAAAAAAAY Bad.

In need of a haircut

You like that mullet? That sexy fellow will be gone in a day or two (friday). Well...he will at least have more self-respect. Picture courtesy of my classy webcam.

Don't really know how I feel about the fact that most computers have webcams in them now. Kinda cool for skype etc. Kinda ghetto for all those creeps that want to chat with people via webcam on awesome dating sites. Yes, I would LOVE to sit and watch you type, it is really mysterious and attractive. Please ensure you are making annoying flirty faces towards the lens, it adds to the experience. Not to mention the backdrop is typically an extremely exciting white wall.

Dear Mom,

Please never use a webcam unless you are discussing ba-yoons or the current 'entourage' of the day. Ok? ok.

Love, Jon.

229 Parks

Driving out to Fairbanks I needed to eat. Weird, I know. I heard about a place in the middle of nowhere that allegedly had amazing food. Deanli has basically nothing as far as food goes, except for this place. Well, time to check it out.

229 Parks is a little cabin off the highway that serves local, fresh food. The Menu changes frequently and had all sorts of things. I wanted to try the rabbit, scallops, pork chops...basically...just wanted to have some of everything. As Always.

Well...

Got the tamales.



Tamales with mozzarella and fresh corn. Heirloom tomato salad with avacado and a papaya cilantro dressing. Yes, that is a flower on top of the salad. Most def ate it.

Wanna go back. Not worth the 4 hour drive...

LAAAAAAAME

I have walked out of few movies in my life...

I can count them on my hand.

The most recent winner:



Jake please tell me you didn't see this at midnight...and not fall asleep.

too fake.

Took a trip to Fairbanks.

Seriously. This is what it looks like...a bunch of teddy bears strapped onto a couch contently watching the cars drive by on the highway.

Yup. I'm most def the freak that decided to pull over, turn on the hazards, and get honked at by every passing vehicle so I could document the insanity rural alaska has to offer.

I guess my enthusiam for stuff like this is too fake, but I think its hilarious.

i'm just a penny.

Yes mother. The answer is Yes.

Love the shimmy festival little ms. pink sash has to offer. If I was fat I'd do that on the daily. Gangsta needs to pick up some moves like that asap, cause he is fat.

Ben Kweller - "Penny on the Train Track"

i'm on a hike.

This is one of three lakes we hiked to.

Tyler thought it would be hilarious to tell me it was 3 miles roundtrip, and then when we showed up correct himself by announcing it was actually 8 miles. awesome.

Actually ended up being a great hike. Haven't been hiking in years. Forgot how much I enjoyed it. Nature can sometimes seem so incomplete, but is broken in all the right places. Perfection. More pictures to come...someday. I bought a camera.



"I never felt like a part of the scene
but when I look at you and you look at me
I never want you to change a thing
I see you broken in all the right places"

'Broken in All the Right Places'
-I am Jen

For the freak.

My lovely mother thinks I am depressed because of the songs I put up here. Get over it mom.

"Why can't the song of the day be a happy/' bunny' song?"

Yes. My Mother said this.

Here you go Mom. You won't like this, might actually dance hideously in the kitchen to it...but won't like it. At least it isn't something fit to cut yourself to.

Seventeen Years - Ratatat

T.O. took this picture yestday while we were at the beach in Seward. Nice little 'cruise ship' town, filled with annoying fanny pack bearing tourists. If you go out of town a few minutes there are some nice beaches. Both times we have been there, these two random dogs are there both holding balls in their mouth wanting someone to throw it in the ocean.

Made me miss the goon, zeus, aka ricky. Even though my lovely mother for some reason cannot understand the fact that he is going to pee in the house if he is left there for 3o hours at a time he is a good dog. Old, senile, annoying, boring, and yes, old. He is a good dog.

It's been a while.

My Regional Manager, aka 'Boss,' is in town. I guess I felt responsible for entertaining him so we decided to venture out to one of the glaciers Alaska has to offer. The pictures speak for themselves. It was awesome.

Pic up top there...Tyler, 'Flannel Sunday' Me, Dustin, Tyler aka T.O.

On the way back to my car, being the intelligent person I am decided that I didn't want to take the trail a million miles out of the way and made a straight shot for the car. Bad idea. Sunk ankle deep in mud. Wet feet. Muddy jeans. Unhappy Jon. Still makes for a good story though I guess.

All you that read this...I don't know why you do. Either way, I miss you. Happy Fathers Day Dad.

Song of the day:

'Everybody Always Leaves'
-Matthew Ryan

" So take care of yourself
And don’t worry about me... "

Another good movie...

'The measure of a great life isn't how well loved you are, but how well you love others.'

-Rachel Getting Married

Just one of those nights...

Driving just outside of downtown Anchorage at 12:30 a.m. last night. Yes, the pic is blurry...it was taken on a cell phone. Give me a break. Hopefully I'll get a camera soon.

Keane - Hamburg Song

I don't wanna be adored
Don't wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved

No, don't wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home

I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
I give much more
Than I'd ever ask for

Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
And warm me up again

Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple

I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for

Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way

To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for

So I made it.

Finally.

After the longest drive of my life, I finally arrived. The weather is great, the city is nice, and I couldn't ask for a better group of people to work with.

Tonight I am up at all hours of the night just thinking about many random things, one of which made me want to vent and give all of you a peek into what may just be my life.

Tomorrow I need to fire someone. Do I know this person? Not really. Do I like him? Not really. Would I like to have him out of my office? Frankly, yes. Here I am, wanting to rid someone from my responsibility and worry. The opportunity presented itself, now I have grounds to fire him.

I don't want to.

Thinking about it I realize that although this kid will never have anything in common with me, he has been rude, lazy, and is just the type of person I don't ever want to work with...I am devastated to break the news that his summer is no longer the easy street he expects it to be. I will be causing him not only to be out of a job, but finding himself and his girlfriend jobless driving across the country to start back at square one.

So many times, I have found myself thinking I have finally found something that works. Something that makes me happy, or that place I think I belong only to have it ripped out from under me in an instant. This is exactly what I am creating. That hurt. That uncertainty. Sorrow. Failure. Insufficiency. How could I do that to someone?

I hope he learns from this. The idea that I may be presenting a learning opportunity is the one thing that gives me hope. Please change. Please don't dwell on this. Please forgive me.

adventureland.

Good, good movie. Didn't have any desire to see it because I thought it looked like another "Superbad," "Knocked Up," "Role Models," blah blah blah. I was pleasantly surprised. Would I tell my Mom to see it? Nope. She would go bumbling off on how it had too many 'F' words, included drug use, and had sex as a part of the story. That is part of the reason I liked this movie. It was honest. The characters were all misfits, trying to find something in their life that made them happy; consequently always looking for that missing piece in their life. Yes, it is rated 'R.' Go ahead, judge me. I liked this movie, it made me realise I am not the only person out there that feels out of place and alone sometimes. At times, all you need is a crappy job, some people as crazy as you, and lofty dreams to feel perfectly content at that moment.

So if you get hung up on petty 'inappropriate' content in a film, please don't see this. The rest of you, it might just be more worth your time than "Fast and the Furious." FYI, please don't tell me you liked this movie, that alone gives me right to judge you right back.

I may, or may not look like this...


Because I am moving here in 3 weeks...

Companies I wish would go bankrupt. Now.

State Farm.

State Farm.

State Farm.

State Farm...

No you don't need to call me once a day to have someone inform me it is ok to get my car fixed...it was fixed 2 months ago. Thanks for the info though!

No I don't think some crazy man calling me to ask where my car is (at school) so he can come 'look at it' is good service. First of all...stalker. Second, creep, just set up an appointment and I'll bring it to you. Third, what do you need to 'look' at?!

You are NOT a 'good neighbor.' You are those annoying people that try to act like you are friends with everyone, but in reality everyone hates you. You don't mow your lawn, have 19 ghetto blaster cars in your driveway, and all 13 of your kids are jumping through the sprinklers in nothing but their underwear. You are lowering the value of all our houses, and cars especially. Please move out of the neighborhood.

The legitimate car insurance company quest begins...

UVSC - 1 Jon - 1.5

Yes.

I got a ticket. Well, it was a few weeks ago but I am still angry about it. Apparently I was on the 'UVU Parking's Most Wanted' and they finally got me. Have I paid my ticket? Nope. Do I plan to? Nope. (Yes Mom, I hope you read that correctly)

So are we tied? I don't in the least bit think so. The fact I have gone all semester without a parking pass which is $80 and have come away with 1 ticket. Amazing. So, I deserve at least half a point for that.

Parking people/freaks. It's on.

Jon - 1 UVSC - 0

Dear UVSC parking:

You have got to be kidding me...

A parking pass is $50 a semester? Lies, it's free. Little do you know I have been parking in the meters right outside my classes for the ENTIRE semester and still have yet to donate one cent of my life to your pathetic organization. YES, this means that one day I sat in my car for 10 minutes having a standoff with a parking employee eying my car waiting for me to get out and not pay. Not gonna give in on that one. Very sorry, I won. Made it past mid-terms, still have yet to get a ticket...

Regards,

Jon.

Yes, it's Saturday. Yes, I am this lame. Yes, I am sitting waiting for Katie to freaking finish getting ready so we can go to dinner 'at 7.' It's almost 8:15...

FYI, this is my official disclaimer. I don't write, spell, process thoughts, articulate, whatever you want to call it well. If you have a problem with it, this is a good time to stop reading.

music.

Who knows where my taste in music comes from. I find myself being continually bored with my current playlist. Too often I find myself picking 30 random songs, falling in love with them all over again, and dumping them off the face of the earth by the next day. A.D.D.? Yes. Selfish? Yes. Annoying? Yes. Will I ever stop doing it? Nope.

Of course here I am spending my only day off for the week searching through iTunes looking for songs I have never heard of. I love every song I download, for a little while.

I wish I had the taste in music of Gangsta. Anything with a beat, 'thug life' lyrics, and something you can annoy the hell out of your mother with. circa We Fly High - Jim Jones, possibly related to the infamous mother harraser Mike Jones.

Mom's taste consists of: Something you can listen to while vacuuming (yes, lets not forget having your headphones upsidedown, looking like some sort of alien maintaining a singing volume anyone could hear over the vacuum which she has no idea), songs she can claim are "about Jesus" - yes, my mom thinks Leona Lewis is now writing religious songs - and of couse songs that can be blasted through the kitchen allowing your's truly to do some sort of hideous dance to.

I am now getting into some sort of hippie phase when it comes to music. Indie and electronic music is so interesting to me. Embarrasing, I know, but I guess I am just tired of finding the same old band which everyone is trying to tell me "Have you heard these guys? They are this 'new' band I found" when I have had their album for over a year. I want a playlist noone else has, I can just listen to myself and share with those I love. again. selfish? yes. If this suprises you, you clearly don't know me well.

So, blog world (whomever you are) I reaching out and naming some of my current favorites:

Kids - MGMT - I wish everyone would stop trying to act as if they are unique and liking this song to be cultured and trendy. I found it before all of you freaks. (don't get me started on Slumdog Millionaire) In fact, there are some better tracks on their album if you give it an honest chance. This is just a good song to get you into the feel of the band. Take that, posers.

Bullets - Tunng - Yes, the beginning sounds like a haunted house, keep listening...it's worth it.

Is There a Ghost - Band of Horses - Just listen to it.

Inside Your Head - Eberg - If you give this song a chance it will be your new favorite. Don't you dare try to act like you were the one that discovered it. I will hunt you down.

Slide Show - T.I. feat John Legend - Cut me some slack, I don't care who you are...T.I. is an amazing artist as is John Legend.

Wow. So this is it. My first 'blog.' Don't expect this to be some amazing feat in my life, I'm really not as exciting or interesting as people hope I am. Just a boring bachelor with nothing else to do with my life, except work and go to a glorified high school that is...holla.